Never mind what haters say, ignore them till they fade away.

Someday I will have my dream home. And it would maybe be something like this.

On the door, after severeal arguments with neighbours (so what, why can't I play my music in my apartment?!), my friends hang up a sign. My neighbours never bothers me anymore, although banging on the walls (and the respond to crank up the volume) becomes more fequent.

In the hallway there's this beautiful piece and the big chest is always appreciated when it's time to get the heels on and off. And when friends comes by too early and have to wait for me.

Pictures with my friends, my journeys and random happy pictures are mixed with expensive paintings and my friends' own works, on the way to the bedroom.

I will have a super-cute rabbit that jumps around in the apartment, and sometimes at really lazy sunday mornings she will hide under the sheets with me. And we won't leave bed until the phone have rung too many times and the answering machine is filled with "Damn you, pick up the phone!", "E call me, you won't believe what happend last night..." and "Oh my God, I looked at my sent texts! Why didn't you stop me!?" - messages.

My toilet-table is crowded with nail polish, perfumes, jewelry and make-up. I never find anything that I want so every day is a new improvisation of make-up. Red lips becomes one of my favourite looks.

My shoe-closet. I will compensate the fact that I didn't wear heels as a teenager, big time!

A secret intrest of mine will be to buy ridicoulusly cheap books at flea markets and to fill a whole room with them. When I get sad, confused or just bored I pick one of them and read it. And it will feel like I've saved them from a really bad destiny.

My study where I check-up on blogs and write on my books. The type-writer is for my love-poems, or at least my tries to do one.

One day I will have this view.

What a fucking lie.

Säkert! – Och jag grät mig till sömns efter alla dar

The whole life was a disco.

I've started to love swedish music. I blame my friend J for that. Before I listened to The Kooks, Paolo Nutini, The Killers, Franz Ferdinand and suchlike. Of course I still listen to them, but now they got company in my Ipod. In there it's crowded with Säkert!, Hello Saferide, Kent, Håkan Hellström, Veronica Maggio, Parken, Amanda Jenssen, Timo Räisänen, Melissa Horn, Lykke Li, Djuret, Ram di dam, Orkidéerna and Bye bye bicycle.

Markus Krunegård is a really great artist. Look at the documentary that I've linked to, he's cool.

I got really happy yesterday 'cause on of the CDs I've requested to the library arrived. So now The Kooks' best album Inside In/Inside Out is in my Ipod! Wie!

Actually I can.

I know who I'm gonna write about in my english class: Rihanna! She is a strong, talanted, beautiful and down-to-earth woman who has gone through some serious shit. A real inspiration source, and she is only 21 years old! Later F will come over we will buy some Ben & Jerry's ice cream, rent a movie and well... we'll see what happens next.

Parce que j'ai le jeu, mes chiennes.

I love Barney Stinson. He is like the coolest kid in town! Some of his legen.. wait for it...DARY quotes:

- Where's your suit? Just once when I say 'suit up' I wish you'd put on a suit.
- I did, that one time...
- It was a BLAZER!

- When I get sad, I stop being sad and be awesome instead. True story.

- I thought I was your best friend. Ted, say I'm your best friend.
- You're my best friend Barney.
- Good, and as your best friend I suggest we play a little game called: Haaaaaaaave you met Ted?

- This is totally going in my blog!

- It's gonna be legen... wait for it, and I hope you're not lactose-intolerant 'cause the second half of that word is... DARY!

And, Barney... When I get sad I look att niotillfem, because in her "best of"-section are the most beautiful things you will ever read. Right now I read about other peoples' monday. Here.

What I want is to be needed. What I need is to be indispensable to somebody. Who I need is somebody that will eat up all my free time, my ego, my attention. Somebody addicted to me. A mutual addiction.

Do you talk in the middle of Seinfeld?

Hello Saferide – The Quiz

You go run and tell your friends I'm losing touch.

An update on the shop-list in USA. We will probably visit Prussia so that's what the (P) stand for and (WBCO) is for Woodbury Common Outlet.

• Aldo (P)
  Check out the shoes and the handbags.
• Angel street thrift shop
  Seems like the best vintage-store in New York.
• Anthropologie
  Romantic blouses is the thing you have to look at here. Watch out for too lady-like things.
• American Apparel (WBCO) (P)
  Buy bras, body suits and the bikini top!
• Converse (WBCO)
  WHITE converse. Look out for cool and "i-wear-a-tshirt-and-i-still-look-hot"-kinda clothes.
• Forever 21 (P)
  I know you panic in here, but don't fall for the 'cute' printed tees. You're so much better
  then that.
• Gap (P) (WBCO)
  Basic wear like belts, cardigans and tank tops.
• J crew (WBCO)
  Check out swimwear, the shorts, belts and the adorable blouses.
• Juicy Couture (P) (WBCO)
  Look for a new lovely handbag – maybe colour?
• Kiehl's (P)
  Here look for facial masks
• Polo Ralph Lauren (WBCO)
  Money to burn. Don't hold back.
• Sephora (P)
  All the make-up things will be bought at one time, in one shop and that's Sephora. Understood?
• Steve Madden (P)
  Shoes, but don’t have too high hopes.
• Urban Outfitters (P)
  Jumpsuits, shoes and dresses.
• Victoria's Secret (P)
  Yummy lipgloss, here I come. Buy gifts for the girls (how many have you promised?) here. Try out the "new" Secret Garden too.

A girl wants Romeo, not Hamlet.

I hate to be a year younger than all of my classmates. I mean, noone really notices it so why is it so damn important?
I curse the day snow was born! I had the perfect hair-day, really I was kind of proud over myself when I left home today. Then I notice - too late - that it was snowing vertically! I couldn't see properly, 'cause the snow kept hit me in my face. I didn't freeze though, even though I wore my Barbour-jacket that well... is not that warm.
No italian led to hanging out with J, N and R in the corridor. It was fun, N is so stupid sometimes. I just laugh. And R told a so funny joke, I mean it was really rascistic but at the same time, so clever! The buissness administration was short too and no legal science. So at 11.30 we left the building. Well, after going up one floor 'cause J saw the boy and decided we should follow him.
Now I should study the rest of the evening. Mathtest tomorrow, and I really have to score an A. I will study - later.
And oh - my cousin from Philiadalphia called us yesterday. She told us that this lovely shopping mall is like 30 minutes from where we will live. I don't complain. So more shop-looking!

One day I'm gonna live in Paris.

Nobody can be perfect, I can understand. But my goodness, I can get better than this.

six swedish artists. six great songs.

Veronica Maggio – Nöjd? - Radio Version
Name The Pet – Sunshine
Melissa Horn – Jag kan inte skilja på
Timo Räisänen – Didn't We Almost Have It All
Håkan Hellström – Jag Vet Inte Vem Jag Är Men jag Vet Att Jag Är Din
Hello Saferide – My Best Friend

Bad boys at the back of the bus.

One of my all-time favourite.

Here, there, everywhere!

I want to cut and colour my hair! But I also want summer, parties and 22 degrees outside, and that's not gonna happen in a long time. But something like this would be nice...

I don't know what to do. Is it this hard to do the right thing?

Ain't got no money in my pocket, but I'm already here.

If you could be MADE into anything you'd like, what would that be? I would like to become a surfer or a kick-boxer! That would be cool. Although I wouldn't dare to really kick-box without awesome training, and surfer... well not in Sweden.
Yesterday I hanged out with my big sister, sometimes I really like her. Then I went to my friend's house and we watched Ice Age 3! We drank Coke and ate crisps. Mhm, what a lovely night. A friend called and asked me if I wanted to go to an underground club with her friends. But I said no, I wasn't up in the party-mood.
Now I study (yeah, right at the computer?), call some friends so I'm up-to-date and later I will meet up a friend.
Lazy sundays? Well, it never is.

Ke$ha – TiK ToK

But how we move from A to B, can't be up to me.

Lykke Li – Little Bit

I'm working, I sweat, but it's all good. I'm breaking my back but it's all good. 'Cause I know I'll get it back. Yeah, I know your hands will clap.

It's like this lump in my stomach. That grows when you tell me about your perfect life. How you kiss pretty boys, dances 'til 6 am in the clubs, laugh at trams with your best friend. When you call me in the middle of my boring day and tell me that you have been discovered by a model-agent. I don't want to be mad at you, 'cause you're one of my best friends and you deserve to be happy. But at the same time I can't ignore how jealous I am. You are perfect. And you don't seem to understand it yourself. Maybe that's it what makes me so mad?

Hands down, I'm too proud for love.

What has happend in the life of E? Well, the school was filled with action as usual! Shall we start from the beginning? Well, at the english lesson we sat in the computer room and looked at very important online stores and fashion blogs. After that we had science. Also in the computer room. So my whole class sits in there and in comes the HOT senior guys (not with the hottest though) and they take the computer that was like two meters at my friend's right side. We had a pretty good view.

Then comes the boy. That I have ignored the whole week. There's three free computers in the whole room. One besides me and two in the row in front of me and my friend. So he sits down at the computer in front of me. Awkward? Hm.. I don't know. I just thought it was kind of funny, I mean the whole situation. Me and my friend listened to music (Håkan Hellström, Daniel Gilbert, Vapnet, Ram di dam, Shout out louds and others) so in our heads there was no awkward silence. But I mean, if the hottest senior would have come in there and then I would have a total melt down.
Me and my friend wrote on eachothers computer, looked at eachother (yeah, then we know what we both think) and laughed at the whole situation. The boy looked backward a lot. I mean really, a lot. And I heard him talk, I haven't heard him talk so much in like... ever.
So after that it was math. The teacher (my absolute favourite teacher by the way), he was totally excited 'cause tomorrow we will begin a new course. With a new book! Gosh.
Then we had religion. A very interesting lesson this time. We watched and compared three movies, and discussed the similarities and symbolics of Jesus Christ's death.
School was okay. But then it was time for me and J to go through town! We visited TopShop. And theTopShop-guy was there. He saw us go down the escalator. We tried on some clothes (I want to wear box-shaped tops this spring/summer, so hot) and then it was time to go up the escalators. Guess who stood there and talked with some randoms? Mhm, TopShop-guy. I took the chance and checked him out. He's nice!
Then food at the Thai-place. After that window shopping. and we found like... NOTHING! We almost got desperate. So we both agreed to stay away from the shops next week. Or else we can't eat candy in a week! So next week will be spend studying etcetera.
Now I listen to Lykke Li. And translates a Håkan lyric to italian (thank you, Google)! Tomorrow you will find me in my Barbour-jacket. I hate my down-jacket. I rather freeze.

And if you say I'm not OK, then that's the goal.

Lykke Li – I'm Good, I'm Gone

Do whatever comes naturally to you.

Elin Kling has the most amazing style. A pity though, that she obviously has more cash to spend on clothes. But here are my last summer favourites...

Summer, converse and a lovely knitted sweater!
Love those jeans shorts.
She can really work those jeans and the shirt. gosh...

Here is her blog

Strive for excellence, not perfection.

This day was almost perfect. It began with a lie-in, 'cause my teacher had canceled the lesson. After that, school as usual except no PE. Then I drifted around town with my friend, bought liquorice confectionery and waited 'til my facial started. It was amazing. I almost fell asleep, it was so nice. I took the bus home, ate and then in to town again to watch P3 Guld with M. Such a lovely day. Wish every day could be as great as this.

If you’ve lost your faith in love and music the end won’t be long.

Total absence of humor renders life impossible.

20:41E
jag dööööööööööööööööööööööööööör
mitt huvud är jättetugnt
20:42J
inte bra, ta iprenare!
20:42E
jag orkar inte gå dit
20:43J
ropa på din mamma
20:43E
nee, jag ska nog gå iochh lägga mig istället
nu logga han in.
och nu logga han ut.
20:44J
bryyyy dig inteeee
20:44E
du har så rätt j.
imorgonkommerjagsehonom. fast jag bryr mig inte
20:45J
nej, du bryr dig inte ett skiiit. kul att se en efterbliven.
20:45E
hahahahahahahahaha
ohh, att du inte är min granne alltså!
20:46J
jaaa, nu kan vi bara sitta här över fb & diskutera livet! bajs
20:46E
ah fuck that shit!
men du är min bästa facebook-vän!
det är alltid nåt
20:48J
japp, detsamma här. gillar våra djupa facebook samtal!
20:48E
me too, du är VÄLDIGT bra på att få mig att skratta här framför datan
20:50J
ohh, det gillas! :D vi blir fb-bästavänner! :)
20:51E
JAPP DET ÄR VI <3
hanärinloggadochdetärjättejobbigt
20:53J
säg till honom att du redan har en fb-bästavän och det är fanimej inte han! retardet!

Don’t judge a book by its movie.

I have catched a cold. My throat hurts like hell. My head is so heavy. So I feel sorry for myself.

I'm not the one to sweep off her feet.

Today will be a fun day. In about 30 minutes I will take the bus to C's house. We're planning to be good girls, study really hard and then go for a walk. We haven't been asked out for a date, or anything like it so we both agree: screw boys, we are totally okay without them.
Later I'm going to my friend's house to have pizza-night! Wiiie, who doesn't love pizza? She has a exchange-student from New Zeeland staying at her place, she arrived last thursday, so we have to speak english. That's totally fine with me!
And I really try to stay away from the boy's profile on Facebook, 'cause if the profile-watcher actually works it's really embarassing, but it's really hard. Blää.

Just because you like my stuff doesn't mean I owe you anything.

Sandi Thom – What If I'm Right

People are people and sometimes we change our minds.

I realized that I treat this blog as my personal dairy. Not that I write everything, but almost. So here it comes. For the last time, what I really feel for the boy. I have to write it down, 'cause confused is not my favourite feeling.
I like him. I think, but that's the catch: maybe I just like the attention, that I finally have some news at the boy front, so I try to convince myself that I like him.

I've never talked to him, but I have talked hours about him.
But if I just liked the attention, why do my heart starts racing every time I see him. Why can't I shut up and stop go on and on about him. Him and his silly behaviour.

'Cause if the rain starts falling, you'll protect me with your coat.

Just a quick hello to you. We had two lessons today, that was exatctly what I needed! Unfortanetly I saw him. Yep, that is always very tense, he doesn't even dare to look at me! My gang stood there, when he passed and looked straight-foward, so after J burst out "Honestly, he is the geekiest person I know". And it's so true!
Right now I'm watching Bully Beatdown. Veery entertaining!

Cool kids can’t die.

Just because, this is what I dream of.

High heels have got me falling down on my knees.

Today.
- Saw the bus-guy too many times (aka three). It's really disturbing 'cause I don't know how to act! Usually I have no problem to just laugh in awkward situations, but when I see him I go dead silence.
- Skipped a class so we could go to eat semla. I know, BAD!
- Weared my new pink jacket (under my down-jacket of course).
- Ran from J and hide. I laughed so hard, when she was about to pick up the phone and text us.
- Saw the hot senior guys today. Yes, everyone! I'm happy! I stood and pointed, open mouth, when I realize his friend saw me.
- Convinced my friend not to buy shoes that she doesn't need.
- Booked a facial-treatment.
- Tried a pair of REALLY hot black ankle boots.
- Panicked when my friend told me about the new profile-watcher at Facebook, that actually works! What about us stalkers?
- Sang out loud with my friend, in the back of the tram. Lisztomania is da shiiet. (Our other friend was really embarrased).

Yeah, that was my day. Or, at least the high-lights of it.

If we couldn't laugh, we would all go insane.

21:35E
hello darrrrrling
21:35J
hello evvi :D
21:35E
vad har hänt idag i ditt liv? :D
21:37J
det har hänt sååå mycket! :D jag gick nästan in i heath på bussen! jaa.. det var allt! i ditt liv?
21:37E
OH MY! vad hindrade dej?
jag har spenderat fem vääldigt obekväma minuter på en hållplats. med killen som "inte vet vem jag är" på andra sidan. så jäkla uppenbart att vi undvek att se på varandra.
21:39J
vem är det? ditt span? :D och ja.. vad hindrade mig, han verkade ha bråttom till trafikskolan!
21:40E
jag var hans span. blondie kallar vi honom. jäkla efterbliven!
asså fan j! du skulle satsar
*satsat
21:41J
jaa, skulle frågat om jag fick ett åk ifall han skulle övningsköra :D
21:42E
oh ja, värsta raggningrepliken jue!
men j... tyck synd ommej. jag hatade varenda sekund på den busshållplatsen.
21:45E
...
...
21:46J
eller pekat fuck you :D hahah, skulle inte det vara kul eller? JO
21:46E
såg inte vad du skrev innan
21:47J
att du skulle vinkat :D
21:48E
hahaha, båda alternativen var väldigt skojiga
han skulle bli chockad iallafall
21:48J
jaa, han skulle komma ihåg dig :D
21:49E
det gör han ändåå
annars skulle det inte vart pinsamt.
21:49J
men då skulle du ju vinka vafan :D:D
21:50E
hahahahahaha, vi har aldrig pratat. bara chattat. en gång. och då lyckades han klämma in en diss som jag aldrig förlåter honom för.
men nästa gång så lovar jag att jag vinkar. så är jag lika efterbliven som han!
21:51J
hahah, vadå för diss? :D
21:51E
jag fråga om han visste vem jag var. då skrev han "nej, påminn mej".
fuck you, ville jag svara.
21:52J
fifan, då skulle du vinkat och skrika; vet du vem jag är nuuudåååå? :D
21:53E
hhahaha, att jag inte alltid tar råd från dej!
21:54J
haha eller hur, tycker du ska börja med det NU! :D
21:55E
japp. nästa gång han loggar in så ska jag skriva... vad ska jag skriva tkr du? ;)
21:56J
haha, kör förfan! :D äg ut puckot!
21:57E
haha, men vad ska jag skriva? du är min coach vettu ;)
21:58J
du ska skriva; hej pojken på andra sidan gatan! som en början :D
21:58E
och sen..?
22:00J
då kanske han drygar med ett: hej.. då skriver du; nästa gång vi står och väntar på bussen samtidigt kanske vi kan värma varandra.
22:01E
asså j. du får mig verkligen att skratta högt... för mig själv.
OM jag skulle skriva så, så skulle han logga ut. och jag skulle ses som den konstiga tjejen
22:02J
haha, jag tror han skulle nappa! och så skulle du ses som den coola tjejen :D

I'm so deep into this shit I can taste the earth.

My throat hurts like hell and I know I shouldn't be talking, but it's so hard for me not to talk. I get sad when I don't talk. I'm not the person who sits quiet, nor am I the one who always seek attention, but when I have something to say I say it.
Today was a fun day. The bus was on time (hallelujah) and I jumped on L's bus to get some companion on the way to school. In school J had a very short and (what I thought) strained conversation with her date. I tried to avoid eye-contact with the stupid boy. And we all went quiet when the hot seniorboys passed us in the hallway. L stood and talked with us and we all just stared. She was like "Oh my god, are you all like that?!" she turned to A who said "Yes... me too.".

Met F that I haven't met in a loooong time and her friends. We decided on a date this saturday to really catch-up. After that I took the tram to the station (the station that are outside my school) 'cause I would meet H there. And guess what happend. Yep, the boy comes and sits down just at the opposite bench at the other side of the station. That was followed by 5 minutes of awkwardness. (I thought of this event when I found the headline).
H and I had a very fun time, and I almost forgot him. Almost.

This ain't Hollywood, this is a small town.

Taylor Swift – White Horse