Stressed. Depressed. But always well dressed.

It's been christmas. The work season has ended. We had a staff party. V is nothing. I got the best christmas presents like ever. I have been sober for 28 days. F and I are going to Bilbao this summer. I want to visit K in Berlin, J in Barcelona and A in Rome. I am going to a musical on Friday. To the movies tomorrow. Sent an email to DM and got an answer. The 14th of january is the birthdayparty that will be awesome. But that's another year. Crazi.

The year of 2011.

So as the year is close to its end I will try do some sort of summary. Always nice to read later you know.

Five events that has been good this year?

My 18th birthday. Way out west. My graduation. My work, well at least the breaks. The London trip with S and F.

Five events that has been bad this year?

All the grade trouble. When I got yelled at by eleven poles. Rejection from Cambridge (think it was this year). Angst about what to do next. My dream world about V.

What have you learned this year?

That you don't have to be liked by everyone. That I can get drunk. My friends are the most incredible people in the world. That hard work pays off. Kissing isn't that complicated. Working can be fun with the right persons. I am attractive. It's fun to get crazy. I am stronger than I thought.

Did this year turn out as you planned?

For the most part, but I didn't think I would party as much as I did. Next year is more vague.

Which countries have you visited?

Great Britain and USA. (I don't count intermediate landings)

The best blogpost this year (your own)?

My fake interview. Here.

Which clothes have you used the most?

Black jeans, Acne shorts, grey tee from Weekday and Converse.

Do you regret something?

Nothing big.

Which music have you listened to the most?

Something like this: 2011, one year before the doom.

The best three parties?

The summer rabbit parties (can't separate them). The JC night. The first LH party.

What have you watched? (movies, series...)

Friends, Homeland, How I Met Your Mother, An Idiot Abroad, Glee, The Big Bang Theory and so on. Movies is harder. Black Swan, Harry Potter 7 part 2, The Smurfs, Just Go With It, Source Code, Never Let Me Go, Something Borrowed, Kick Ass, Bridesmaids, Bad Teacher and Crazy Stupid Love.

Which bands/artists have you seen live this year?

Miike Snow, Edward Sharpe & The Magnetic Zeros, Alexis Weak, Anton Kristiansson, Ram Di Dam, Bobastian, Britney Spears, Den Svenska Björnstammen (DJ-set), Emil Jensen, Empire Of the Sun, Wiz Khalifa, Håkan Hellström, Veronica Maggio, Säkert!, Robyn, Pulp, The Hives, Kanye West, Prince, Movits!, Noah And The Whale And The Tallest Man On Earth. I think that was all.

Which people have you hanged out with the most this year?

H, L, J, E, T, H and F.

Which new people have you gotten to know this year?

Many. All of my dear colleagues of course and I've come closer to some people as well. Very nice.

Three things you are proud over that you've done?

Donated blood. Stayed vegetarian for a year. Graduated with great grades.

What is the most beautiful you have gotten this year?

My MacBook Pro. And my job. And my paychecks!

The best text this year?

I can't choose... but here are one favourite: "Det kom nyss en kille som ville att jag skulle skriva mitt nr på hans hand. Jag skrev 'Hej då'."

Best youtube-vid this year?

How many have you been in love with?

None. Bu-fucking-hu.

What is the best thing you've read?

This blog.

What song do you wish to be your soundtrack next year?

Shakira – Loca (Featuring Dizzee Rascal) - JS Mix (English Version)

What are your New Year's resolution?

Be a little sluttier, but don't get desperate.

Tonight's the kind of night.

She's dying to meet you.

The Kills – Baby Says - Live Acoustic Version recorded at KUT Austin

OK. I have to write. Am close to tears although I don't know why. I can't stay here. I can't let a boy ruin my day. I can't, I can't, I can't. I know nothing. Not what I wanna study, not where, not when, not where I wanna travel, what I wanna learn. I thought all would work out as soon as you left high school. Maybe it will eventually, but right now... No. Maybe someday I can look back and think "Oh, if only I could tell you it will work out.". Oh I really would want that. I want a boy who is addicted to me. I want a career which I love. I want to now something. Just something.

Ultimatum.

I'm scared to see the ending why are we pretending this is nothing?//I've never heard silence quite this loud//And I'm dying to know is it killing you, like it's killing me?//This is looking like a contest, of who can act like they care less

The only way I could take.

I ought to say no, no, no.

I danced sober last Friday. For real. Had a blast with T and J at LH. Have worked the whole weekend and well, it's just have been nice. Have been working with a new guy and so I have to point out all the things he does wrong. So well, he probably beliefs I'm a bitch. What to do... Saw V in the cafeteria both Saturday and Sunday. Don't know if he saw me, but then again my laugh i quite rare. He texted me Saturday night wondering what I was doing and so. Nothing remarkable. Then on Sunday I didn't get a ride home so I texted E and asked if we could go home together. But she texted me back wondering if I wanted to go to VP. And since I didn't have any fun stuff to do at home, why not? So there I was sitting with V, E, L, D (their boss), N (another boss), A and two skiguys. It was fun! And I drank alcohol... No more for the whole month. We sat there 'til 11.30, then we headed for S. Only the cool ones left. There I was. Sitting next to V. Pretty f-ing close to V. Holding hands at one point. Gah, why is he doing this to me? Not seeing each other for like two and a half week and then acting like that. Hmpfh. According to T: "He wants you. Hard".

I dreamt that I was in a relationship with V. It was so nice. Didn't like waking up from that dream.

Two Red bull and an avocado.

Do you often arrive in time?

Always, hate people that are late.

Do you have good condition?

I used to have. Now I think it's tiresome running to the bus.

When did you get photographed the last time?

In the bathroom at the club last night.

How do you feel right now?

Pretty OK. Headache, but much better than usually after a night out.

The most common colour on your clothes?

Black bottoms, white tops. Shocking, right?

Can you cook?

Yep.

What do you study?

Italian at the university.

Do you turn out well in pictures?

Yeah, although I don't have a "photo face" which everybody else seems to have.

When and why did you cry the last time?

I don't remember that actually. Weird.

Was it embarrassing answering that?

No.

Did you have a good time last night?

OH YEAH!

Your favourite drink in the morning?

Milk or orange juice.

Are you healthy?

This month, yes.

Have you ever had a job?

Of course.

Are you shy?

It depends. If I feel like I "have to" get new friends, like on a new job, I can be ultra-social and happy. But in other situations I can be very quiet and watching.

What time did you get up today?

10.15

What TV-game did you play last time?

Probably Little planet.

Which TV-game are your favourite?

I don't have any...

How much does it takes to get you drunk?

I don't get drunk.

Have you puked in public?

Yes, but only on airplanes.

I sleep: on my belly.

What was the last thing you said?

Thank you.

Where you at a festival this summer?

Oui, Way out west!

Who do you call when you're sad/angry?

One of my fabulous five. L, J, T, H or E.

What would you need right now?

A neon yellow dress.

Do you have nice shoes?

Yes, but nothing extraordinary.

What was the first thing you said this morning?

I don't remember the things I say.

Have you slept in your own bed tonight?

Yes.

Have somebody else slept in your bed tonight?

No, thank God.

Do you have a driver license?

Oh I really need to get one.

Are you alone right now?

No.

What are you looking forward to the most this week?

Getting a gymcard, buying christmas gifts and hanging out with my friends.

Come on it's lovely weather for a sleigh ride together with you.

She & Him – Sleigh Ride