I just wanna write about love. This whole concept that everyone seems to be aiming at. Personally I've never been head over heels, swiped off my feet- in love with anyone. Sure I see good looking guys every day but never have I felt like I craved for someone. Neither sexually nor mentally. And up until some months ago, when I didn't have anything else to say, I would sigh and say with my pity-voice "I want a boyfriend...". It's a great conversation starter when you're with your single friends, but I can't help thinking that I just want a boyfriend for the sake of it. Because that's what you're supposed to have in you're late teen. I would want it for getting a little bit closer to being perfect, not for the sex nor the "not being alone"-part of it 'cause frankly I quite enjoy being alone. And that is just not a good reason. J is talking about all the time and sure it can be fun, but I don't really care for that at all. Not that I would say no to having a boyfriend if it really was love, but I just don't see the point chasing after it. And my life wouldn't have room for an extra person who would want more attention than my friends surely. What if some people are just supposed to be, not lonely, but alone?
