Just some damn honesty.

I'm scared. I just can't stand more of the "what are you going to do after graduation"-chats with everyone. I thought I knew exactly what I wanted, that it would be a piece of cake making choices when I would be 18. But I don't. I haven't even been kissed and now I'm supposed to know what I want to do for the rest of my life? I know you can always quit jobs and move, but how easy is that? I'm scared of being a nobody. I want to accomplish something real that changes lives. But how am I going to do that in a bank or trading company? I hate shallowness, how people can ignore that they're dealing with other humans. What if I'm going to end up at a job I despise? Also I hate how money-fixated my parents are. I just wished they could see me and how much I can do and, I don't know, believe in my strength? Because I know I am strong enough. That brats can't make me feel low. You know what the best of best things would be? If I found a boyfriend and we moved together to S. What a dream.