You're using your headphones to drown out your mind.

It was a blue day today. Although it feels a little bit better. I have wonderful friends, that's a fact. They always answers to my sad-texts and tries to cheer me up. And if that don't work they scold at me. Like for instance I didn't eat enough this weekend (my diet was four cups of tea, a sandwich and mudcake), then my friednd refused to help me buy new jeans. "I will not support you disappearing butt". I need wake-up calls like that.

I have a three-pages long task in PE until tomorrow. It's about health and how/if I want to change something with my life. Kind of hard, but I have some ideas.
I try to cheer up with music. Regina Spektor is always a favourite. She got an amazing voice.

Regina Spektor – Eet

My friend's step-sister went to Australia today. She and her friend will backpack for 6 months. Jealous, me?! I want to do stuff like that when I graduate. Just travel without a goal.

You say you are strong, that you've been through this before.

I don't know why I feel like this. Just *bang* and I'm sad. Met a friend today. She was worried about me. She didn't understand why I felt the way I do. "You're perfect, Evelina", she said. "And noone can be perfect, always".
Maybe that's it. I try to have control and be the image of perfect. Maybe I can't do it anymore?

I bought a jacket today for friday's concert. Have to be cool, 'cause the coolest people I know will be there. So thought I would wear the new military-inspired jacket, my black jeans, the Marc-tee and my brown boots. Sounds good. Oh, can't wait for friday to come! Just gotta let go.

And tomorrow, I HAVE TO TALK TO HIM! God, I'm such a wimp.

Gang Of Four – Natural's Not In It
Bow Wow Wow – Fools Rush In - Kevin Shields Remix

Music is the only thing that keeps me going.

In every word, with every thought.

Confused. A word that describes me very good right now. I hate it. Hate to not have control, or maybe I'm scared of not having any control? Why does life have to be this complicated?
Boys confuses me. A lot. I don't like when boys are looking at me. Makes me feel uncomfortable . Especially if they keep staring and I stare back. If you think I'm pretty or whatever, tell me so please! My friends kind of believe I'm experienced or something like that. Oh, they don't know how wrong they are.

The only thing I'm looking forward to right now is the gig with Ram Di Dam. Nothing else. Not even christmas (what's wrong with me?!).

Ram Di Dam – Half Asleep

Can we work this out, 'cause I don't know how?

I have fooled myself too many times.

So today I got two tests back. Got A on both and it went well (i think) on the mathtest!

So, I'm exhausted... but here's some swedish music if you want to listen.

Håkan Hellström – En Vän Med En Bil
Djuret – En Dag Ett År
Håkan Hellström – Nu Kan Du Få Mig Så Lätt
Ram Di Dam – Half Asleep
Mando Diao – Dance With Somebody - Radio Version
Mando Diao – Long Before Rock'n'Roll

Life's a bitch and then you die.

So thought I would make a little print on the Internet, before I countinue my studying. Had one lesson, with test and it went fine. My sister and I visited IKEA and bought some stuff and now it's back to math-studying. Have to get at least a B+ on the test. Wish me luck!

Away, away from me.

Just posting a little thing before I countinue with the math. Yes, I found these pictures and the second was like the scariest pictures ever! Doesn't it look like a looks-perfect-but-everyone-here-are-murderers-or-psychopaths-and-don't-you-dare-to-walk-on-the-grass- village?! I wouldn't dare to live there. I rather stick to non-perfect- villages. Thank you.

And a new music tip for you : Ram Di Dam – A Liar To Admire (Away From Here)

It's always better on holiday.

Hello darlings. Today I'm super-happy.
So, how come? Well, yesterday I talked and chat with lots of lovely friends. Love my friends. This friday me and my friend are going to see New Moon! We talked about our summer too. Yeah, can you believe it: this summer break will be my last ever! Got to be the best! I found out that my favourite boys Ram di Dam, will have a gig next friday. Woho! Also one of my friends that I chatted with made me laugh so hard. Seriously I couldn't breath!

But all that happend yesterday. Today started good. I listened to this (Franz Ferdinand – Jacqueline) on the bus and the day just kept on being as great as the song. The wierd thing was that my friend was just as happy as I were. She had heard from a guy she likes. Naaw. Anyway, you know the senior guys we've been almost (ok we've really) stalked. They are forgotten. 'Cause guess who's got admirers in the natural science class? Yes, that's right. Me and my friend.

And by the way, I have to score out one of the things on my wish-list. My mother got really tired of me and dreged up a typewriter out of the closet. The ink had dried though, but yes now I have a typewriter so I can play author.

Five things I have to do this summer (no, it's not a long time to the summer).

Go down to my friend's summer place at the Riviera.
Visit Cambridge Open Days.

Have barbeques with my friends at the beach.

Go to the Emmaboda festival. And party all the time.

If you guessed that the pictures are from weheartit, you had right!

Dressing is a way of life.

Something like this. Beauties from Proenza Schouler, Burberry, Chanel, Next, Jil Sander and DKNY.

One person's crazyness is another person's reality.

This evening I was at a christmas fair, or something like it. Really cozy and met up some friends and we talked. About everything. We planned for a dinner with some common friends, and brainstormed for a trip to the danish captital Copenhagen. Really lovely.

Tomorrow I'm going to the indoor swimming pool with another friend. We need to work-out and swimming is ok. Then after that, it's homework all day long. Next week there will be an italian test, a test in juridical and a math test. It will be such a funweek.

So, more? No, I don't know. I promise to do a inspirationboard 'till tomorrow. And I will not complain about everything I have to do. So sweet dreams and listen to this before you go to bed: Billie Holiday – That Ole Devil Called Love. xoxo

A little christmas-inspired picture. From weheartit of course.

J'avoue ce jeu me tue.

So what do you do on a saturday afternoon? Well, I listen to french music (and tries to singalong ), wear a t-shirt from Loft with just "OUI!" on it and clear up my room. The dinner yesterday was fine, met some friends I haven't met in a very long time and well, danced. I don't drink alcohol, so I don't get the headache all my friends get. Woho! And I don't smoke either. Jeez, I'm such a good teenager.

What do I think about today? Hm... I wanna live in France! Oui! Love almost everything that is french, like the clothes, the style, the language, the boys (??), the food and the music. Vanessa Paradis is wow. No surprise she have Johnny Depp as her armcandy.

Vanessa Paradis – Dès Que J'Te Vois

And out of the blue; here's my wish-list for christmas.

A typewriter.
A clock for my room.
A perfume. Preferably Burberry's The Beat.
Tickets to the Emmaboda Festival.

Mulberry’s Double Wrap Rivet Bracelet in black.
A candle from Diptyque.
A Liselotte Watkins illustration.

Pictures here, here and here

And oh, if you like Vanessa Paradis listen to this too (in english though) Nouvelle Vague – Too Drunk To Fuck

We're gonna burn this city.

picture from weheartit.

I'm getting ready for a ladies' dinner. The theme is 'Swedish Hollywoodwifes', a popular and quite funny program that just follows three women who live in Hollywood. The dress is on its hanger, the make-up is in my vanity case and the curling iron is in my bag, meeting up some friends to get ready with. Hope it will turn out to a very funny evening!

This blog has been a lot about boys and not that much fashion. Time to shape up! Not right now, but I promise it will come soon. Show you my inspiration-board right now, sounds good uh?

The track that I love right now is Franz Ferdinand – This Fire, old... but whatever.

So, I hope you all have a great evening!

We are always running for the thrill of it, thrill of it.

Yesterday I watched the TV (praise the lord for Scrubs) until it was bedtime. Sometimes it's just the only thing I can manage to do. I blame it on the fact that I'm a teenager. And that it rained to whole (yes, the whole) day. So depressing.
Also, yesterday happend this really random thing at the library. My friend and I were just about to check out our stuff, then a boy comes up to us and asks what movie we thought he should show for some girls on a movie-night. I can't tell the whole story. But it was really random and I looked round to see if someone was filming it. On the other hand, it was really brave and cute of him to care so much for what these girls would like.

Right now I'm listening to this track: Empire Of The Sun – Walking On A Dream (Van She Tech Remix)

I totally have abstinence of the hot senior guys. They played for the schoolteam today so no sight of them, buhu. Although my friends have thought of a pretty funny thing. You all know about body language (really interesting, if you want to read a book about it I can highly recommend 'The definitive book of body language', by Allan Pease). Well, it says that if you're INTERESTED in another person or find her/him attractive you unwittingly touch your hair. It's really true, I catch myself doing it everytime I see a good-looking guy.
Well, guess what the hot senior guy who smells delicious do every time he passes us? Yeah, that's right. So at least he knows who we are!

Right now I want a guy who...

Makes real breakfast with banana hearts

Kisses me wherever we are.

When I rip my tights (happens everytime) just laughs and rips them himself to make the holes bigger.

And understands how important it can be with Chanel-popcorn.

Pictures weheartit.

But I always say, one's company, two's a crowd and three's a party.

I love to read. Almost everything that crosses my way way I pick up. Kind of annyoing though, because when you have like ten librarybooks at home and you don't know which to start with. I finished reading "One Day" by David Nicholls yesterday, and well it was good. Not the best. But you know ok.
So now I've started on "The Secret", "The Rehearsel" and "Essays in love". No surprise that I've borrowed 82 books since first of January. Kind of sick that I keep up with school at the same time.

Yeah, school... I've always enjoyed school, but now I kind of hate it. Really weird 'cause I love my friends at school, the (extremly) hot seniorguys in the corridors, my class is fine, the teachers I can stand and the schooldays are short. So it has to be wrong with me then, don't you think?

Let's dream a little before I go back to my homework (actually have a test in business administration tomorrow, woho!), shall we?
Ok... If I could be anywhere in the world it would be... Some Mediterranean country like Italy or far far away like Australia. I would have a light summer skirt on me and the sun would warm my skin. My hair would be blonde like it always get's in the sun. I would just lay in a meadow and read a book. Something like "Pride and Prejudice". No worries and no pressure. At the evening I would meet up my friends and we would go to a resturant and laugh all evening. Then they would force me to join them at a nightclub. I would stand at the side and this really hot guy would come up and ask me if I wanted to dance. And we would dance all night.

I would live here.

And there's nothing to prove.

So now I'm stressed out, but I won't bore you 'til death with my problems. Instead I will try to cheer up and show you some beautiful pictures. Well, I let them speak for themselves. But if I was you I would listen to this song at the same time:

Nouvelle Vague – Dancing With Myself

Oh it's what you do to me.

I'm sorry if I seem a little bored (which I am) or don't have anything better to do then sit here and write. It's just that my diary is out of pages and my head keeps filling with thoughts that I like, hate or just try to shut out. But it's hard when the only thing you can think of is a boy that you've never talked with. Who got that perfect haircut that you want to touch because it looks so perfect. Who smells not just good but amazing. Who got that brown eyes that seem to gore your soul and you have to look away so that you don't suffocate because you forget how to breath when he looks at you. Who you had on Facebook and everyday you would look at his page just to see him once again. Who lean on the desk in the classroom and looks out in the corridor so cool that you for just one second forget that you don't live in a movie. Who smiles secretively when your friends mock you in the stairwell because he kind of understands it's about him. Who you got crammed in with in a boxroom with your best friend and your teacher and you got so drolly but you had to play cool. Who you saw at the airport when you were about to fly by yourself for the first time and you wiped away your tears just because you wanted to look just as cool and sophisticated as him. Who don't know that you jumped and screamed with your friends in a empty corridor just because you didn't know what else to do when you had seen him. Who got loose long-sleeved tee-shirt. Who your best friend once was one second away from hitting in the face with your wellie. Who's schedule you've compared with your own so many times that you by heart which break you might see him. Who you talk about for hours and hours with all of your friends but they can't understand how high your heart jumps when you see him, and how it one moment later hurts so bad because you kind of know that it will never be you two.

You know just who you are, who you are, but not why or when or how.

I wrote that yesterday. Had a blogg.se adress, but i changed to blogspot.com today. Mucho better!
Met a friend today that I haven't met in a looong time. She was still the same, she had been in Seattle last summer and visited the Twilight-village Forks. No Robert Pattinson there though...

But the man who made my day was my math-teacher! He moved the math-test to next thursday, hallelujah!

A friend of mine who studies music (aka estetare) says that the way to a human's heart is through her Ipod. But since my Ipod has crashed, the way to my heart is through Spotify. So here's the bands i listen to right now. An ordinary monday.

Ram Di Dam - a swedish band from my hometown. See them almost every week, gorgeous boys.
The Kooks - don't need any introduction. Favourite song? Hm.. easily Naive.

Mando Diao - also swedes. Saw them last spring, filmed with my mobilephone although you can only here me, shouting.
The Killers - the only band I can't get tired of.

The Who - whooooo are you?

Paolo Nutini - if someone would write me a song like 'Jenny Don't Be Hasty', I would never leave his side.

I'm not trying to cause a b-big s-s-sensation.

So finally I have a blog - again. Not that anyone would notice, but it's good, good to know that I make my print on the Internet. Probably it will be a mixed bag of music, fashion, worries for the future, inspiration for myself - and others if you read it, books, movies, nailpolish and boys. And well, I like english so why not write in english? That's like the hottest accessory a boy can have - a british accent.

The pictures will mainly be from here. Otherwise I will tell you. What's on my mind? Oh, besides I have my biggest crush ever on a senior-boy, that's smells delicious... Not very much. The ordinary stuff a teenager deals with; homeworks, friend-things and music.

I want to see this movie, but I can't find when, or even if, it will come to Sweden. Please SF, show it before christmas!

Tomorrow I only have two, yes you read right, lessons. It's italian and math. Will probably survive it, except I have a test in math on thursday. That I will not survive. Damn you quadratic equations! Hate your guts. Now you've got a little taste on what will occur on this adress. So, I don't know, take it or leave it. As the title says... I'm not trying to cause a b-big s-s-sensation.