Rambling around midnight, my newest habit.

I told you all about my new heels and how I really want to use them. I want it so bad so I was thinking in wearing them in *sigh* bright day light. Although today while in town I saw this girls wearing a pair of similar heels and oh my god. Not a pretty sight. Well, first of all she could not walk in them (ever heard about practise at home?) and second of all she had this plaited skirt that was far too short. I could at times see her underwear! So in fear of looking like her, I will wait to wear my supercool/cute/pretty heels until I really know it will work.
I had fika with M today. I have not met her in ages partly because of the fact that she has a booooyfriend who she is with 24/7. Anyways, we had quite a lot to talk about. No, skip the last sentence: she had a lot to talk about. When I meet M it is like going back to högstadiet where I was the quiet one who just was a hangaround to M. I love her, but I'm not that girl anymore.
I was at the farmacy yesterday and bought important stuff to THE FESTIVAL!!!! Yup, me and M leave on thursday and it will be so great! She came by with the tent this afternoon and well, I hope we remember everything. And I have to snog with a total stranger. That is my goal! Woho!!

Some things I would like to write about.

Like for instance that I have been obsessed with this bag since I started to read blogs. So maybe five years!
Collarbones are one of the prettiest things on a female body.
This house is one of the prettiest houses I've ever seen. Where is it?
I bought a quite expensive bra today. But I want more!
So I can, one day, show them to guys like this.
When I get pregnant, this is what I'm going to wear. Honestly this outfit makes it worth being pregnant.
How bad I want to apply eye-liner like this.
And here she is Tilda Swinton. In the incredible movie "Io Sono l'amore" (I am the love).

I fly like paper, get high like planes.

Oh, gosh. I have worked quite a lot lately. There is this girl at my work who has been sick now for five days. Well, I need money so I figured why not? Yesterday I had a whole day with only me and mum. We had a great time! We went to the archipelago and sun-bathed a little while and later we went to the movies and saw "Io sono l'amore". Such a beautiful movie. Although sometimes they really tried to be too edgy and pretty. But oh, I really do like Tilda Swinton. Such a beauty. And in this movie all she ever wore was Jil Sander and Hermés bags. Jaloux, moi? The story was also set in Milano and they all spoke italian. Well, it was great I think that is what I'm trying to say.
I have a little, you could call it a plan or dream. Anyways, when I become maybe around twenty-three or so I will start dressing and all likea modern Bridgette Bardot. This is an example:
And then, when I start to near my fourties I will just one day cut of my hair and become a brown haired Tilda Swinton. Uh?
I really love my mom. She is so nice and lovely to everyone. We passed a couple who stood with a map and looked all confused, and she just stopped and helped them. I want to be more like that. Maybe I will, someday.

Space that needs filling out.

I worked today, yes. And I bought a pair of expensive shoes, that I probably never will wear, yes. So anyways. I worked today (yeah, I wanted to point it out one more time) and I helped a Brasilian football team. It sounds cooler than it was; the players were 13 years old. And their trainer didn't understand english! One of the small boys translated everything. Strange. And now I'm babbling. It is just so damn hot in my bedroom so I ca'nt sleep. Poor little me. Oh, I helped a (I hate to write on the Iphone. No! I do not want to write 'á' why would I want to write that?!) Canadian couple. They were really sweet and I suggested a few tourists things and they were very greatful. Wie! So maybe I should write about the shoes? Well, it is a pair of See by Chloe. So cute. I. Want. To. Live. Like. Those. Shoes. Gaaah, they are black and cute and timeless and classic, but very cool at the same time. I want to wear them for ever! But in Sweden people do not wear over-cute heels just like that. One day I will move to Paris or London or New York and I will only have high heels. Only, mark my words! Jeez, I have not told my parents yet. On friday I will get my first pay-check so hopefully they will not notice anything different in my banking account. Peace. (And just a really not important thing: Why, oh, why does MTV let me watch only the first part of shows at their website?)

Don't you own a shirt?

Oh, I saw Eclipse yesterday! It was hilarious. I haven't read the books, so I didn't know what to expect. The last movie was not so good, but this one. Oh my! I laughed, laughed and screamed. I'm a Team-Jacob for sure!

So fed up of the same old broken man.

But I'd rather be your friend, then to never see you again.

I have been at many places the last few weeks. I've been in Italia, England and I have also sailed for the first time with L and her parents. All lovely weather, so now I'm tanned! I shopped a little while in London. I bought two jackets, a pair of wellingtons, a tee, some nail polishes and a pair of shorts. In between all these trips I also worked and baby sat a puppy! So now it feels really wierd to have nothing to do!

I just don't want to die.

It was a really scary feeling that hit me yesterday in the waiting hall at the empty bus station. I don't want to die. It was like BAM! And I realized that I will not live forever. I will never know more than like 80 years on the earth and that is so scary! Suddenly. I cant even write about it. I hate death. But what am I going to do about it?!