I wrote a song for you and all the things you do.

The world's most beautiful couple is offically back together. Can you be anything but happy?
Yesterday was spent with L we tried to find something at the sale for her, but we failed. Instead we ate thai-food, looked at funny people, saw the seals in Slottsskogen (I thought one of them was choking, but he seemed fine) and tried to walk to her place in the snow. Later we met L's friends and we watched two movies and had a cozy time.
Today me, my cousin and my family will go at Rekordmatchen. Love.

And I am a weapon of massive consumption. And its not my fault it’s how I’m programmed to function.

Today the winter-sale begun. Hallelujah! I and J was in 10 o'clock and we went through almost every store! J found two things and I bought three beautiful pieces:

- A lightblue jeansshirt from Zara. It will be so nice to a pair of black jeans-shorts this summer!

- Black skinny jeans from Weekday. It was totally crazy at Weekday, I'm not kidding the queue was 20 meters and yes, it took 20 minutes before I got inside a dressing-room.

- The pink jacket from Fiorucci. It was down 50 percent! I will practically live in it this spring/summer! Love.

Although I haven't told my parents I bought this much. They want me to wait 'til NYC. I'm still pissed off at them 'cause they wont let me go out on new year! Honestly, they treat my as a baby! I'm so sad. I can't tell my friends that either, 'cause I mean, it's so weird!

So I've heard you declared war against love.

Christmas is over. I don't really like it, because it is just so overrated. What did I get? I got money, a charm for my bracelet, a speaker unit for my ipod, a dress, a skirt, a top, dollar and a gift voucher on facial treatment. Also, the trip to NYC was a gift for the whole family. 11 'til 19 february I will be in The big UsA. So fun.

I know this is kind of out of the blue, but when I'm sad I listen to sad music. It feels nice, just knowing you don't have to be in party-mood all the time. Although I like brit-pop nothing can be sadder then Håkan Hellström

Håkan Hellström – För Sent För Edelweiss

Håkan Hellström – Nu Kan Du Få Mig Så Lätt

Håkan Hellström – Jag Hatar Att Jag Älskar Dig Och Jag Älskar Dig Så Mycket Att Jag Hatar Mig

If only God would give me some clear sign! Like making a large deposit in my name in a Swiss bank.

Want to wish you all a very merry christmas. Hopefully you will spend christmas with people you love and celebrate the things in your life that are worth celebrating. You take too much for granted. I will be back on friday. So, until then eat fruit, listen to good music (phoenix is my current music-crush), hug people and just laugh at your old crazy grandparents. Love.

The extremely funny quote is from the dear Woody Allen. He is wonderful.

Everyone's at it.

That dress. I. Will. Get. Ohterwise my summer wont be what it could be. From ACNE's SS ' 10 collection. Don't you hate her just a little bit?

and oh, I've added some blogs in the "everyday check". Check it out.

And that’s what makes my life so fucking fantastic.

Love love love LOVE these kind of pictures. To look in another person's bag is really funny. Everyone has so beautiful things in thier bags, mine would not look as pretty as these. Maybe I should write what I have in my bag an ordinary day, though not today. Another time, promise!

I need a new bag! A bag that would work in the spring-time. A beige or creme coloured maybe? I need a shoulder bag, that's for sure. It gets so heavy with all my school-books in it!

Lily Allen – The Fear

Lights will guide you home.

I love this picture. Look at her face! It's like disgust.
Today I was in town with my dear friend J. We had so much fun. I bought presents for my sister and mother, and also a cool lace-top from Topshop for myself. We met and saw so much fun (and gorgeous) people. We saw Tobias and Hugo from Ram Di Dam, J from our economics-class, the unbelievably handsome shop assistant at Topshop, L from my athletic team and other random people. I didn't believe it can be so many hot people at once. Really it was almost an overdos.
J is an amazing friend. She understands everything, and don't bother if I talk about the boy for one hour. Also she has great taste in music and style, really. I'm so lucky I have her.

Remember those walls I built?

It's hard to forget a boy. It's even harder when you see him three times at the christmas fair. The strangest thing was that I somehow felt that I would run into him. Just sayin', maybe I have a sixth sense.
This eveing will be spent at my friend Clara's place. Have bought crisps and cheeze doodles, can it get better?
Glee Cast – Halo / Walking On Sunshine (Glee Cast Version)

Feel it coming in the air.

Three days 'til christmas eve, and I'm starting to feel the christmas-spirit. I will not let a silly boy spoil my christmas, that's for sure. I'm finished cleaning my room, have some new tracks at the Ipod and wrapped in presents.
I have a billboard where I put up nice things. that reminds me of happy, silly or funny moments. You forget them too easily. Right now there is a crazy message my friend wrote on my Facebook-wall that I had to earase 'cause it was so mean (and brutally honest), the chewing gum-package I bought when me and my friend saw Hurricane, a picture of Pembroke College, two cinema-tickets for New Moon that I went to with my friend, pictures I've torn out of magazines for inspiration and the former back-side of my science book where my friend have written some bands I have to listen to and other silly stuff (like her name with a heart around it).

Soon my sister and I will go to a christmas fair. Have to find a present for her and my mum. But no panic, hopefully they love me anyway. Got my grade-money yesterday, I get a sum of money for every A I get. Sadly only one course finished this christmas, but 'til spring I will finish ELEVEN courses. Ka-chinga.

They tried to make me go to rehab.

It is so much snow outside. I can't remember the last time it was like this before christmas. The snowflakes are big like feathers.

Glee Cast – Rehab (Glee Cast Version)

There's only one way to burn up.

Life is strange. One minute you can feel so lonely, the next you are so happy. The strangest thing is that you truly believe you're alone. Alone with all your feelings. I've thought so for so long. Today I learned that I'm not.

I also volunteered at Musikhjälpen. That was really lovely. I helped to raise 34000:- for the fight against malaria. And got a cool jacket. Played at Håkan Hellströms guitar too, yeah I know, too cool for school!

I thought love like yours was easy to catch now.

If you chat with the girl you've been checking out the whole term, what would you do?
A. Make her laugh and ask her out.
B. Tell her sweet things and suggest that you two would meet sometime.
C. Pretend that you don't know who she is and be extremely boring.

Well, if you choose A or B you're a totally normal kid. Ironically the guy that I've been thinking about choose C. Yeah, he pretended he didn't know me. Ok, it's one thing if you've been out one night, drunk and just met some new people. But gosh... You've been checking me out since last summer. You don't have to admit it, but darling don't pretend to be cool and ignorant. That just make you look so stupid in the girl's eyes. Her friends will tell her to forget about you, that she deserves better and everything will lie in your hands. Does anyone gain on it? Do you keep your imaginary pride? Well, if so congratulations!

Luckily I have great friends. After a lunch with A, I was still depressed and decided that a cadge at my dear L's house was exactly what I needed. We cook toffee, watched 'Breakfast at Tiffany's', talked and played Suduko. A lovely night. Woke up and went to the town by bus. There I met H and A and A's friends. Nice.

I threw away some kind of friend.

picture: weheartit.

I have a goal for this holiday. To make five new REAL friends. People I can talk with, for real. Hopefully not just female friends. Boys aren't that scary.

Just writing this down, so that I don't forget it. Three weeks to go. On your marks, ready, set... GO!

I'm a dreamer and I dream of what will be.

I have so much to say to you. I want to tell you I think I like you, although I haven't talked to you yet. That I might seem angry sometimes, but that's just me being insecure. I don't like when people are looking at me, 'cause I don't find myself beautiful. I want to tell you that I don't see what you're seeing in me. If I'm nice, can you tell me? I want to tell you that I'm just as scared as you seem to be. Writing that "hi" seems to be the hardest thing I will ever do. Your friends might be teasing you. Well, do you feel better if I tell you my friends teases me? That I've spend hours just talking about you. Have you've done the same thing? I hope so. Because today I will say hi to you. Or tomorrow.

Today was the winter-breaking up. The last one with the hot seniors. I stared at them the whole time.

I don't want to grow up. It seems like that thing everyone is talking about, but when you do it, you want to go back. Growing up. The whole life has been "what do you want to be when you grow up?" never "do you want to grow up?". A pause-button would be nice. Or knowing everything will be fine.

It was a little bit of snow at the ground today. And it was icecold, the wind blowing so hard.

I wonder why I feel so empty inside. Can it be so simple, it is beacause of the boy?

Håkan Hellström – Nu Kan Du Få Mig Så Lätt

Wish I could say this to you.

I'll never let you sweep me off my feet.

He has accepted my friend-request at Facebook. Finally.

Money makes the world go 'round. People will be people always. Baby, what goes up comes down. This I know, so here I go...

pictures from weheartit.

They will hurt you and desert you, that's what they do.

Now I want summer. Now. I've already made a playlist. Please Santa bring me a perfect summer.

Amanda Jenssen – Happyland
The Kooks – Naive
Nouvelle Vague – Master And Servant
Jay-Z – Run This Town [Jay-Z + Rihanna + Kanye West] - Explicit Album Version
Ram Di Dam – A Liar To Admire (Away From Here)
Paolo Nutini – Jenny Don't Be Hasty
Franz Ferdinand – You're The Reason I'm Leaving
The Ting Tings – Shut Up And Let Me Go - Acoustic Version
The Undertones – Teenage Kicks
Djuret – En Dag Ett År
La Roux – Bulletproof
Of Montreal – First Time High
Queen – Another One Bites The Dust

Don't need that help from God above.

CUTE OVERLOAD! from weheartit

Mando Diao – Gloria

How long can a human being live without Facebook? The question me and my friends ask ourselves.

In the depth of winter, I finally learned that within me there lay an invincible summer.

Sometimes I behave as a child. Like for instance in the case of christmas-presents. I can wander round in the house searching for my mum's hiding place. Seriously. And when I find it I try to figure out what's inside. Did it just ten minutes ago. So now I know that I will get the lilac skirt from H&M and probably the Zara-dress too.

I'm planning for the summer already, as you all know. Now my wardrobe is on the subject. So here is some words, things and feelings I want to be and have next summer;

pink jacket, white converse, cool, jeans shorts, sun glasses, tan, plaids, laughing, tees, fun, ice cream, pictures, sea, pony-tails, bright nails, blouses, natural, trench coat, dresses, laidback, party, strawberries, music, smooth.

Nouvelle Vague – Master And Servant

Of all the lonely people, I wanna be loved by you.

The boy hasn't answered the friend request yet and I'm so nervous! What if he doesn't like me that much? If I'm just some kind of eyecandy? I've lost the control. Don't like it! What if he looks at my pictures and thinks I'm a total geek or freak or boring? I don't usually care what boys think of me, but he's a BIG exception.

Of Montreal – First Time High

Not supposed to know.

So it's friday. Ok, offically it's saturday now, but whatever. So sick. What happend to the week? Studied so much to the math-test that the hours just vanished.

So today was a fun day. First school of course. But we was at the hair stylists-floor today. I've never been there before (and I've spent almost one and a half year at that school!), so it was a adventure. Really. When me and my friends came up there it was dark and not a single person at the entire floor. Spooky. Then my friend suddenly screams! She had just turned round the corner and there it was a cabinet with fake-heads in it. Hello bad horror film.
Then after school I visited the library (no surprise there then) and then went to my friend's house. We talked, drank coffee, listened to music and had a lovely time. But my friend and her friend raped my facebook. So now the boy has a friend-request!!!
I saw New Moon again. With my lovely friend. She laughed non-stop for three minutes when Jacob ripped of his shirt.

And now it's time for bed. Three new CDs today at the Ipod. Love it.

Now you see you've spend it all on me.

Woke up at 6 am today. Too early for me. But I turned on my Ipod and danced my way to the bus. The math-test could have gone better, but it was ok.

The rest of the day was spent at the library where I borrowed more CDs, lunched with mum, texting with my classmates I didn't see today and reading the book I have to write about tomorrow. Have to write at least 300 words. And oh, I tried the skirt from H&M and had it set aside until tomorrow. Hopefully my mum wants to give my an early christmas-present.

I went through my pictures at weheartit and found two very similar pictures. I think the left one is from Paris somewhere. And the right one is from my loved Cambridge! Can you believe that I walked there five weeks ago! Kind of sick.

Today I left the school alone. Don't usually meet anyone special on the way to the bus, but today one of the senior-boys we've been stalking was at the street when I turned round the street corner. We were the only one on the entire street. He kind of knows me and my friends have stalked him and his friends, so it was ten second of awkward glances. But he smiled, so yeah it wasn't that embarrassing.

The Ting Tings – Fruit Machine

That ^ song I listened to today. Five times, then I was out of the door.

All you do is fill me up with doubt.

La Roux – Bulletproof

Will something ever happen? When will a boy dare to say hi to me, instead of just staring at me? I wanna know that! Today at the bus a guy looked at me the whole way. 20 minutes. Why did he look at me so much if he's not interested? Am I so ugly? No, I'm not seeking for pity, but you know... it feel that everything happens to everyone else.

I guess staying up late is good preparation for sweet dreams.

I'm going to bed soon. Just going through some pictures at weheartit first. It's never easy going to bed. All the great ideas and important things seems to appear when you brush your teeth. Usually I try to make a deal with myself. "When this song is over [the song is always Romeo and Juliet by the Killers], you must go to bed". I rarely do it, instead I press repeat over and over again. And I end up listening to it at least five times before I turn off the computer. Love the song so much. It's just... wow.

Tomorrow I will not sit at the computer at all. Ok, I lie. Probably I will copy some CDs to my Ipod, but nothing more. On thursday (the day after tomorrow, bam bam baaam) it's the biggest math-test so far. Four hours we will sit there and have fun with our calculators. So excited, not.

Anyway. Sweet dreams and have a great day tomorrow. Do something that you've never done before. I will try to talk to the boy. Something has to happen before christmas.

The words so sweet.

I hope I will be able to say that someday.

Easy as it seems, there's things I'd like to keep.

I love these pictures, from Rodarte if I remember it right. Love the feeling you get; that you're actually there! No posing, no fake-smiles or other silly stuff that otherwise are in backstage-pictures.

I sit here at my desk sourounded by Ipods, CDs, cellphone, books, pencils, librarycards, lists with great music and headphones. Quite a mess. Listening to Håkan Hellström, looking at my fading stamp from the gig. Talking of the gig, guess who I saw when I was waiting at the busstop? Yeah, Karl the leadsinger from Ram Di Dam. C-c-cool! He walked with a friend pushing a stroller in front of him. Not many can pull that off but he succeeded!

You can fall for pretty strangers and the promises they hold.

I can't do the talk like the talk on the TV

And I can't do a love song like the way it's meant to be

I can't do everything but I'd do anything for you

Can't do anything except be in love with you

Beautiful is not good enough to describe these lines.

The Killers – Romeo And Juliet

Music is essentially useless, as life is.

Been at the libary today. Borrowed some CDs, ok... six. My computer crashed last year, and since then I haven't managed to get my music-list together again. Those of you who have Ipods know the crux; you can't fill your Ipod with music from a new computer, without all the music you have on it disappearing.

So, wanna know which CD's I borrowed?
Various Artists – Marie Antoinette

Paolo Nutini – These Streets

Mando Diao – Give Me Fire

Regina Spektor – Far

The Killers – Sam's Town

Håkan Hellström – Känn ingen sorg för mig Göteborg

And soon I hope I will get my hands on these groups' CDs: MGMT, Black Eyed Peas, Tegan & Sara, Kings of Leon, Jay Z, Florence + the machine, Empire of the sun, The Who, Samtidigt som, Parken, You say party! We say die!, Does it offend you, YEAH?, Boy kill boy, Gossip and last but not least The Velvet Underground.

Because I told you so.

Have stuff to do, want to know what? Well, I have to finish reading my book in english until friday (150 pages to go). A causerie on two pages 'til tomorrow. Study to the BIG mathtest on thursday. Read and comment on an article about a legal case 'til wednesday. Funny sunday, uhu?!

The Ting Tings – Shut Up And Let Me Go - Acoustic Version

And hey, here's a video from the gig. Don't know if you can see it, but you can always try!

Note to self.

Sunday noon. Has to be the saddest time in the week.
Yesterday turned out great. Met my friend and we window-shopped in town. Found two beautiful garments, that couldn't move in at my place 'cause I didn't have money on me. The first thing was a perfect new years eve-dress, black with white stars from Zara. My friend got all excited. She said it was perfect for me. The other thing was a perfect skirt, lilac and draped from my dear H&M. Want to buy them tomorrow!

The dinner with the girls was succesful. We ate at a greek restaurant. Really lovely. We talked about the future. It's so scary. All the girls there is so damn pretty, funny and nice. I really hope every single one of them will get the life they want.

Paolo Nutini – Autumn

I want to find love. Soon. Please. In the meantime read this.

The truth is in there somewhere.

What is your middle name? anna How big is your bed? not big enough What are you listening to right now? erik hassle - don't bring flowers after i'm dead How is the weather right now? rainy, damp and depressed Who was the last person you talked to on the phone? jonna The first thing you notice about the opposite sex? hair and clothes Favorite type of Food? everything Do you want children? yes, not now though Hair color? ash-blonde Do you wear contacts? nope Favorite holiday? summer ofc Favorite Season? spring, when you have everything in front of you Have you ever cried over a love lost? no Last Movie you watched? new moon What books are you reading? sally's adventure, time magazine Piercings? earrings Favorite Movie? inside man Favorite book? every single one from picoult What were you doing before filling this out? lying in my bed Favorite animal? dogs Favorite drink? tea Favorite flower? lavender Have you ever loved someone? no Who would you like to see right now? amanda What color are your bedroom walls? blue Have you ever fired a gun? only airgun Do you like to travel by plane? hate it Right handed or Left- handed? the right one If you could go to any place right now where would you go? london Are you missing someone? yes, every little bit of me misses my friends Do you have a tattoo? no, and it will never happen Do you still watch cartoons on Saturday mornings? no, sleeping is my number one priority Are you hiding something from someone right now? should i? Are you 18? no, and that sucks What is the wallpaper on your cellphone? håkan hellström's last concert last summer Are you afraid of the dark? only when i'm alone Favorite hangout? anywhere, everywhere 3 things you can't live without? friends, laughter and computer Favorite songs? that depends on what mood i'm in What are you afraid of? birds, cockroaches and the future Are you a giver or a taker? ha, ask my friends What are your nicknames? to embarassing What is your dad's middle name? karl What do you sleep in? panties and tank top Stuck on a deserted island, and can only bring one thing? a pillow Favorite TV commercial? i don't watch the commercials First thing you'll save in a fire? old pictures What is your favorite color? right now it's black What are the things you always bring with you? wallet, lipbalm, cell, ipod, pencil and mirror What did you want to be when you were a kid? work with dolphins What do you usually do when the alarm turns on? press the snooze-button What color is your bedsheet? pink Who do you want to meet? the one What do you think about before you go to bed? everything i've done that day Do you smile often? no, laugh is my thing Do you wish on stars? aha Do you untie your shoes every time you take them off? no When did you last cry? yesterday Do you like your handwriting? other people says it's nice, i don't care Whose bed did you sleep in last night? my own bed What color shirt are you wearing? gray I can't wait until? i meet amanda Are you into anyone right now? have you read my blog? Who was the last person (besides you) in your room? magiih Have you ever had chicken pox? i don't know what it is Is there someone you want to fight? no, prefer backstabbing Song playing right now? erik hassle - hurtful What are you doing tomorrow? doing my homework Does anyone like you? i hope so, really What's annoying you right now? my sister Do you want to kiss any one right now? yes Have you ever watched a movie drunk? never been drunk What were you doing two hours ago? sleeping Are you tired? no Who will you be with tonight? only me Who were you with today? it's only morning What will you do Sunday? sleep and eat What kinda cell company do you use? telia Where were you at midnight on saturday? don't remember Are you married? no Have you been outside of the U.S.? yes, all the time actually Do you wish on 11:11? yes! Do you wear any jewelry? my friend's earrings What's one thing you want right now? money Current noise you hear? music Do you find yourself loved? yes Where is the weirdest place you have slept? in a bed with 11 friend's 'cause the other had been locked out What's the closest blue object to you? curtain What is your natural hair color? ash-blonde How many times have you dyed your hair? none Have you done anything "wrong" lately? dunno, lied favorite subject? philosophy favorite teacher? my math-teacher, talks all the time about totally random things

They tell me I'm skinny, as if that's supposed to make me happy.

And the week end is here! Finally. Well, it's been a pretty good week, nothing to complain about. Although I didn't dare to speak to the guy. My friends think I'm a wimp. I have to agree.
Yesterday my lovely friend came by and brought with her two delicious chocolate cakes. She was worried I didn't get enough of sweets. Love that! Later I chatted with a friend, and she asked if I wanted her to ad the guy. They had like 15 friends in common. So she did. And well, I know her password. Guess what I've been doing this afternoon...

The Ting Tings – That's Not My Name

In about an hour I'm off to THE GIG! In the best of worlds I would wear these beauties on my feet (so hot with that nail colour!).

Saw Cinderella in a party-dress.

Oh, you didn't think I would forget to give you a music tip? With some nice pictures? Here it is.

The Killers – A Dustland Fairytale

Yep, like the best slow-dance-turning-to-jump-dance-song there is.